3 Weeks in

3 weeks into this. Had "girly time" last week and was up a lb., but I checked today...just to see...and I lost it plus some. So I'm hoping that on Thurs. it will show!

I made a "stunning" realization last weekend. It was 4th of July, and there was a LOT of food. Tons. I did the best I could, but still made some bad choices (though getting better). I checked my calorie consumption when I got home, and surprisingly - though I did go over my weight loss calorie amt. - I never went over my maintenance calories. So I didn't eat enough to actually GAIN weight, just not enough to lose at the rate I am aiming for.

This was a revelation to me because...well...before I decided to take charge, as it were, I always beat myself up over overeating/going over my "allotment" This time, I didn't. I feel a lot better about myself and my eating habits!

Being accountable to myself has been interesting. I've done a lot more than I thought without paying someone $X/month to MAKE me accountable. I don't need to rely on anyone to do this.

I've decided on my 1st goal: 155lb. This will be lower than I have EVER been in my adult life. 19.2 lb. to go :)

This week has been an experience. Haven't really weighed myself, so I'm not sure quite if it's working.
But I feel better, I'm not constantly hungry, so I guess that's good.

I have found that:
Eating healthy = expensive :-\ It's worth it, but it's cost us a lot.
My hair looks a lot better, possibly from the added protein?
Walking 2-3x per day might not be the hot cardio I need, but at least it gets me out of the house.

It's been kind of a game - stick to the splits and feel healthy! But at the same time, I feel like "seriously? I need more protein? I just want pasta...boo." Or, "I do NOT want to go for another walk today. I'm too {insert excuse here} and I just don't wanna." I promised myself I would do better, and I am. My motivation is...well, I'm not sure. Just that I'm tired of being fat.

It's funny though, going to the gym (lifting + little cardio) has been the most rewarding; the one thing I look forward to and think about in my off time (how I can do better, what to improve, what to change). I never would have thought that!

Day Three

I know, not starting day 1 = weird. I've finally gotten off my lazy ass and decided to eat right and exercise. I'm not going to rely on a fad diet and junk to help me lose weight. Today I'm accountable to myself, and that's it. No more being a total fatass and sitting around all day.

Things I have learned:

Good food makes ALL the difference. I'm not as hungry the last few days.
Weight training is HARD. Really hard. I think it will work.


Goals:
40/35/25 split c/p/f. Try to balance within meals and all day.
Exercise 4x per week. This week - twice gym, once cardio (and will do another tonight).

I've finally committed to myself and I'm going to do it. Updates whenever I need to, or when I learn something interesting